Die While You're Alive

This is a message of hope and insight for all of the incredible beings out there who are suffering immensely, who feel they are dying with emotional pain, so much so, they are depressed, anxious or even contemplating suicide.

So what does it mean to die while you’re alive? Well it’s very easy to live and be happy when everything is ok, but what happens when the business crashes, the partner leaves, the movie flops, the child dies, the doctor gives you bad news, the repressed memories surface, the coping mechanisms fail, etc, etc, etc; a part of you must die to make sense of the world, and for you to have the energy to continue living.

Good news, the part that dies while you’re alive is a false identity: the “I” that believes the sad narrative, that thinks it’s separate from others, that believes it’s a mortal human on a journey going somewhere, and that any achievement will actually bring lasting happiness. Hopefully this isn’t too much for you to hear but these misconceptions have to go sooner or later; for some of us they go all at once, and by the grace of God we survive;  for others they are gradually removed. Generally you’re not given more than you can handle, and without a doubt you are much more resilient than you think, and invincible when you realize the identity beyond the body and mind. That is my speciality – reflecting back to people who they truly are; and the truth is: YOU ARE DIVINE & POWERFUL BEYOND ANYTHING THAT THE MIND CAN IMAGINE.

When trauma hits, the identity and foundation on which you comprehend the world gets totally obliterated by the destructive guna. Your persona is left discombobulated, disassociated, confused, lost and distraught. Good news – you’re not your persona (which is a conglomeration of thoughts, feelings and past) you’re the witness of it. Hell exists on earth when you believe you are the mind, so get that delusion out of the way a.s.a.p otherwise The Goddess (or Universal Intelligence), in a painful yet evolutionary process will tear away your ignorance; she will perform her cosmic surgery, and in doing so, sometimes remove the very foundation on which your sanity rests. Even if your mind implodes and you become insane (permanently or temporarily) the Higher Self, or The Witness can NEVER be lost. Once you’re firmly established as The Witness you simply observe non-judgmentally all that passes in time - such as thoughts, feelings, hopes and dreams; then all fear will disappear.

You might feel it’s impossible to cope but know this:  WHEN SOMETHING ‘BAD’ IS HAPPENING — SOMETHING GOOD IS HAPPENING. When you’re  lucky enough to receive upgrades in consciousness a process of destruction and rebirth is set in motion. Dropping the body is one way of getting upgraded, but staying in the body and witnessing the event is epic. The caterpillar needs to be dissolved, to be broken down completely into mush, before being re-assembled into a butterfly that breaks free from the chrysalis. So if you are feeling like a gunky mess, it’s ok, nature is taking care of you and you can survive.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE. As a therapist I’ve helped many clients process and recover from annihilation, and in return they have also helped me understand life more deeply. I’ve also personally experienced the cosmic wrath of multiple heartbreaks, divorce, childhood trauma, injuries, ill health and abrupt changes in life circumstances. Here are some examples of shares and existential questions from people who have hit rock bottom and who are in a process of Self Realization. All names are changed for confidentiality.

Peter a war veteran with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) and survivor's guilt arrived in my office after seeing my picture on Psychology Today; he said:

“I had to see you because I saw your picture…I shot and killed a woman who looked just like you….now I plan to kill myself; I sensed I should see you before I end it all”.

* After one year of therapy and learning Transcendental Meditation (TM) Peter became Self Realized, recovered from PTSD and is happily married. He now radiates a caring, loving presence and feels like family. We have a non-verbal connection and sometimes know what is going on with one another.

Dwayne, an in-patient at a Malibu addiction rehab stayed after one of my meditation groups and said:

“I’ve seen so many psychiatrists and they all tell me I have “this disorder” and “that disorder”, what is the point of living anymore if I’m so permanently damaged and  f@#$d. Tell me, am I ever going to change?”.

* A sacred space opened up as we spoke about neuro-plasticity (the mind's ability to change) and I saw Dwayne deeply, BEYOND ALL OF HIS LABELS, he then suddenly stated: “NOBODY CAN STEAL MY JOY”. He left the rehab that week and remained drug free.

Vishnavi the psychic shared:

  “I’m not built for this world so I exit it. My psychic abilities started as a child because of all the physical abuse…I had to go, to exist in another realm…that was 20 years ago…I’m not sure I ever returned. Can I come back into my body and live a normal life?”. 

* Vishnavi does daily yoga and physical exercise to ground her in her body combined with therapy.  She now only occasionally sees me when she gets swept up in her head.

Matt the A-List actor confided: 

“I’m a fraud! ever since I won the award I can’t act anymore. Everyone on set gathers around to see me act, expecting some amazing performance; I’m sick of all this b!@## pressure,  I’m freezing on set, can’t remember my lines, getting panic attacks and drinking …I  just want to give up and die”.

* Matt, through mindful meditation, learned how to allow uncomfortable emotions to pass through his body, stopped drinking and still acts.

Ali the billionaire said:

“I’ve never had a real relationship and how can I? I’m addicted to sleeping with hot high class call girls who will do anything I want. Lately I sleep with 6 per night, sometimes all at the same time and tell them what to do. How can I go from all this stimulation to a normal woman? Am I going to die alone?”

With therapy, listening to my YouTube meditations and going on a men's retreat Ali  recovered from his sex addiction and now has a girlfriend that he is deeply in love with and plans to marry.

And there are countless other stories of people who have hit rock bottom, found the tools to suit them, survived and became more resilient and even Self realized. Don’t give up!

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